Doubt

Today has been a hard day full of doubt on my and wonder should I just take my current child to Disney and screw the rest. That I am being self-fish and that it is not fair of me. I just feel so mixed with emotions and wonder what the heck I really am doing. I wonder where am I suppose to turn and wonder really what am I doing. I wish there was someone to talk to and I think the only thing for me to do is email the support person from the fertility clinic.