The Master Plan

Since there is no Mister Right walking through the door and I am turning 35 in three days I am moving on with my master plan. Would I love to have that Mr. Right yes I would and would wait if it happened but being on five no six different dating sites in the last year with nothing yielding from it I am moving on.

So for the last month I have been working with CNY Fertility I love Dr. Klitz and his team. I have already had two surgeries and was told to just go ahead and buy my sperm. WOW those words I thought that I would never hear. Those words looking back on my life I thought I would never need. I thought I would be married and have as many children as I wanted to.

I feel mixed emotions happy that I can move on with my plan and happy that it is available, yet I am still sadden that I still do not have that Mr. Right to share my life with. I am jealous of those that are able to be loved and cared for in all those ways but I am not getting any younger and want another child.

I feel self-fish I am never think of just myself and I feel that I am at this point. My parents are supportive but when my mom said if this is what makes you happy then go for it. I know that this is not the magic pill that the journey is going to be hard, yet I want another child.

So soon the master plan will begin. I know this journey will not be an easy one at all times but I am still excited that it is about to begin.